I am so sneaky.
So basically I have loads of new friends and they don't know about this blog and my friends who do know about it have almost certainly forgotten about it so I can write whatever I want here.
And what I want to write about is a boy. How original.
But this one is a boy that I actually talk to so it's an upgraded version of the blogs I wrote two years ago... and have since deleted.
Ok, so everyone knows so I won't bother trying to be all secrety. His name's Jim and I sometimes call him Jam.
The first time I met him was at a homestuck meet in a park and he was climbing a tree with skill while I sat kinda half up the tree and he said he was going to find more trees and I went with him (and some others) because climbing trees rules. So we climbed trees together although I was incredibly bad at it and he was swinging around like a monkey. We just kinda talked to each other a fair bit and it was really fun. We went to feed ducks and we were sitting near each other and talking and then we climbed a tree with only Ruby staying with us and we walked back to out stuff together.
Then he added me on facebook and we talked to each other there and blah blah it was good. We talked about serious-ish stuff and were generally silly. :D
Then I planned a camping thing at my house with some of our friends and he came and we got attacked by a spa together and we spent the second (and last) night holding hands and I may have been slightly slightly ecstatic about it. And I played with his hair the next day and it was nice.
And I was texting him a bit last week and stuff.
Basically the point is: I like him a lot. I would kind of like to tell him but I'm not really sure. I mostly don't want to be rejected... which is obvious but still.
I spent about an hour tonight looking through the 'valentines' tag on tumblr. And I spend far too much time relating songs to him. And just thinking about him in general.
I wish he lived closer. Or I did.
I wish I knew if he liked me. Because he definitely seemed flirty just after I met him and stuff but now I don't know. Maybe he got to know me and realised he didn't like me like that :( Or maybe I'm just getting used to it from talking to him so much. I really hope I haven't talked to him too much and made myself annoying.
But I don't want to think about that.
I tend to think about things too much and the longer it's been since I saw a person the worse I expect them to think of me. Because people make me happy and being away from them makes me sad.
Oh well, school starts soon so I'll be distracted. Hopefully. And then I'll see him again soon enough.
MAH MAH MAH
FEELING ARE HAPPENING.
And damn it feels weird posting this while I'm in a chatty thing with him.
